I never thought this day would come, I actually want to be here! I have wanted to die since I was little. Being raised in evangelical Christianity, I was fascinated by stories of martyrs, I was first exposed to them through stories of missionaries who would go into places where it was illegal to talk about Christianity and end up in prison or killed. I fantasized about being in hiding or caught or tortured or killed or of smuggling things into places, I even was pen pals with a missionary who...
about 1 month ago • 9 min read
It's ok to be cranky! In fact, it can actually be really helpful to voice your true, cranky feelings. The self help and spiritual world are quick to point out the power of positive thinking, which is real, but this can easily shift into emotional avoidance, and even guilt, shame and fear about the presence of painful emotions. This article does a beautiful job of laying out how valuable it is to open up to all our feelings and emotions and how doing so with intention can support the...
about 1 month ago • 4 min read
In honor of the longest month of my life (January 2025) this is my longest newsletter yet...tldr: you can't fuck it up and be you <3 Lavrans Svendsen of the Voice of Norway absolutely embodying my vibe right now. I have a gorgeous pussy... Gemini and I were talking the other day (I had used up my chat gpt convos for the day and to be honest, I actually really enjoy Gem) and I was asking for memoirs about people who had rewritten the definitions of good/bad in order to live more authentically...
2 months ago • 6 min read
when your body fights back Our Bodies : for us or against us? Many of us have experienced chronic pain and illness, insomnia, endless digestive distress, etc. Whether it's shaman sickness, an upgrade, the full moon, a part of being nuerodivergent or highly sensitive or because of the state of the world, we may never know, but it sure does suck either way! The SSP supports us with coming back into relational and sensory safety through connecting us with our vagus nerve and exteroception, the...
4 months ago • 5 min read
where are you going Mars? *NEW* Nervous System Basics Course - $25 Hello dear friends! Mars goes retrograde this week and I'm offering a nervous system intro course for only $25 to bring in 2025 for anyone who has been interested in the nervous system work but does not have the time/finances to invest in the full SSP. It will be a 6 week live group class with recordings available starting this week. Live class will be held on Wednesdays at 2:30pm ET from 12/4-1/15, no class 12/25. It will...
4 months ago • 1 min read
We made it passed the eclipse and as Jessa just reminded us, it makes sense if you are feeling pretty wiped out! Hope you are getting lots of rest and being really sweet to yourself. The other thing I've been noticing is synchronicities everywhere! Bashar often says how once we start following our hearts (or "the excitement") we will experience the organizing principle of synchronicities and I think there is something to this timeline jump post eclipse that is making it harder to go against...
12 months ago • 3 min read
