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that Eclipse Season was a bit rough...
Eclipse season was a bit rough for everyone so I'm offering the big nervous system work course that has an overview of most of what I've learned in this life for "pay what you want" for the month of April as we recover from this eclipse season. You can use coupon code: ECLIPSE100 which will make it free and then you can venmo me anything you want to pay @gazitchayankosi. There is plenty to be freaked out about right now and maybe this can offer some solace. <3
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Taking the scenic route....
 This video is gold, there are so very, very many tidbits of wisdom and the whole thing is just a love letter to everything I feel about shifting from the cross of planning to the cross of the sleeping phoenix, I could describe it, but instead I encourage you to just take a listen! It's magnificent! Alecia Renece The Artist really nails it!
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You do not have to be good...
 There has always been so much pressure to be good for me over the years. As I continue to unravel it, I have found it popping up in my relationship with the work that I offer. When I was growing up, I wanted to join the sisters of charity with Mother Theresa. My parents grew up poor, not having enough to eat, and not feeling safe in general, they were struggling in my early life and then came into money as I got older, so there was money around for a lot of what I remember but I experienced less closeness as the money increased and really judged the materialism. When I started living on my own, I really identified with frugal, self sacrificing energy, I worked in public schools with a real white-savior mentality, boosting my fragile sense of self by trying to prove what a good and generous person I was. Moving from that into this new reality where I'm no longer dirt poor and where I don't have to self sacrifice and where I can spend my days doing what I love and value feels really wonderful but also really complicated. I think I feel worried that I'll lose that connection that comes through struggle, that I'll no longer be a "good" person if I'm not struggling. Familiar can feel safe and feeling safe can be unfamiliar. I am grateful for all that has shifted in my life but also disoriented. To go from a person struggling to pay rent, getting food from a food bank, working in a struggling public school with miserable people all day to a person who owns a home, has their own business and can afford groceries pushes against so much that I was taught and inherited epigenetically. And then when folks are not able to afford the work with me, it further compounds all this complication and has led me to question my work or become defensive of it at times. Like all suffering, this stressful experience has come to offer me the opportunity to seek clarity around what it is that I am offering and how to interact with the reality that it is not accessible for everyone. I have put together the above video to talk through the clarity that has come from this stressor, the garden that has grown out of this wound of scarcity (metaphor from the extraordinary Alok Vaid Menon). I will continue to add to the video resources that are available on my YouTube channel and will continue to explore ways to offer access to courses, etc. I've offered to run a free nervous system basics group course through the Jumpsuiters Patreon so we will see if they take me up on that and if not I'll just offer it independently. If you have other ideas around ways that align with honoring the work, maintaining abundant support for me and my kiddo and opening up more accessibility, please share!
More and more, I am reveling in the permission from Mary Oliver in her poem Wild Geese, that I do not have to be good.
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Do you want to be a #3 or #4
 You may know that I'm a huge fan of the Work of Byron Katie. Here is an intro to her story and the Work if you haven't come across it yet or want a refresher.
My relationship with her work has evolved but it stays steady as one of the most effective ways for me to recenter that I've found on this planet. When it comes down to it, our judgement of self and others is the cause of all suffering. If you don't expect anything of yourself or others and add in a dose of nervous system understanding, life starts to make a LOT of sense. Alligators bite, and we don't think they are bad or abusive. We just know to get out of the way of an alligator.
This work helps so much because we can see what it feels like to be an alligator (#3), and then compare it to what it feels like to be a mammal (#4) and most of the time, even when the alligator is RIGHT, it feels better to be a mammal.
All of the work is available for free on thework.com and Katie goes through it with folks on zoom calls for a donation multiple times a week (I've done it with her twice and both times were radically transformative) and then posts them on her podcast. Check it out, take what you like and leave the rest!
Oh and her book, "I Need your Love, is that True?" is one of my top 5!
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Laughter is the best medicine!
 Cats talking!
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And nature is good medicine too <3
 I adore Octopi and this one has such a sweet interaction with this diver!
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